As part of her post-recovery life, she has to have regular follow-ups to make sure that the cancer hasn’t returned and one day I thought the world was collapsing around us – after a series of tests, we were told that her cancer had returned but this time, it was in the other leg. I couldn’t do this all over again and neither could she. We had to get a second opinion and thankfully, it turned out that there was an error in the first tests. The news was such a relief, but it also helped me understand how everything around me affected me mentally too and that made issues I’d had, even worse.
One of those issues is my battle with my weight. Since I was a child, I’ve always gained weight easily and found it so difficult to lose it. My doctor suggested I see a specialist but then my sister told me about Delphine and her “magical” methods to help me understand where my weight gain comes from.
It wouldn’t hurt to try, so I made an appointment to see her and my father came with me because I didn’t want to go alone. We arrived 15 minutes early and I was so stressed due to the fear of the unknown. I met Delphine, we took stock of the kilos I wanted to lose, she explained her working methods, and told me that I could still see a specialist at any time. I felt reassured but not completely. Then, the moment that I dreaded the most arrived; I had to talk her through the history of my life. I did so and I tried to be as clear as possible. That was hard enough but then I had to talk about my sister’s cancer, and I couldn’t stop crying because it was still so painful to relive it.
Delphine asked me what issue I would like to be free of first. I didn’t even have to think about it – I wanted to be free of the emotions that the memories of my sister’s cancer and health kept bringing up. She listened carefully and proposed that I treat it with Tipi emotional regulation. Sceptical, I went along with it. She asked me to describe the moment when I felt the strongest emotions – I explained that it was when we learned of the cancer returning. As I started crying again, she asked me to close my eyes and describe everything that was happening in my own body. I took the time to explore internally and realized that I was tense, that I had a knot in my stomach and a tight throat. Delphine then asked me to allow these feelings to develop, which is exactly what I did. Then we started the exercise again and there, miraculously, I no longer felt anything; not even the desire to cry! I felt like I was free of an enormous weight!
When I came out of the session, I felt weirdly empty. My father had waited outside during the appointment, so I told him about my experience of emotional regulation, how I felt this weight leave my body and how I felt funny.
